this is literally me trying to get my life together…
My compassion is broken now. My will is eroded,
and my desire stolen and it makes me feel ugly.
I’m on my knees and burning.
I have swallowed the poison you feed me…
but I survive on it,
and it leaves me guilt fed, hatred fed, weakness fed..
and I feel ugly, and dead inside.
Shit adds up at the bottom.
Sometimes I find myself sitting in one spot for hours, staring at nothing, thinking of nothing, feeling nothing, and most disturbingly, caring about nothing.
Once you lose someone, it is never exactly the same person who comes back.
Sharon Olds, Satan Says
So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
An old Cherokee told his grandson: “My son, there’s a battle between two wolves inside us all…”
i know that you are strong and you will eventually be okay, but i had to ask :) stay strong..take care ! :)
Awww thank you yet again!! Yeah buddy, STRONG… :’)
are you okay? i really hope everything's okay ..
Hey anon, guess we all have horrible days/weeks/months, hopefully everything subsides with time, thanks for asking though, means a lot :D
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
My Immortal (Evanescence)
I wish I had the courage not to fight and doubt everything. I wish, just once, I could say: This. This is good enough.
Chuck Palahniuk \